am i evil?yes i am..

ayos ka lang bata? haha.
after everything i can't help thinking na naging makasarili ako. i only thought about myself ni ind ko naisip kung anong mararamdaman nila. stupid of me ei? sa totoo lang wala naman sa kanila ung problema e. nasa akin. kasi i dont know what i want. mahal ko si erick pero deep inside i cant help thinking na there's something missing. i know i've fallen for tristan kahit sa short time lang na yun and i really really want to give it a chance. pero ind ako mapakawalan ni erick. i dont wanna think anymore. andito na eh. ganito na yung nangyari. looks like im sticking with erick for a while. ayoko nang guluhin pa. i know tristan is moving on. that's good. as much as i dont want him to go i need to.kasi masasaktan lang xa. ill let go for him. and ill stick around for erick. ill stop thinking about myself and just think about them. tama na sana toh. erick will be happy na im sticking around. and ind na masasaktan si tristan dahil he can move on. he can start over. i just hope mawala this nagging feeling inside.give it time it will. i hope na ung pagiwas ko makatulong. pasensya na ah. magagalit nalang muna ako sayo and id rather na magalit ka na rin sakin para mas madali. para mawala agad ung love. ill keep my promise. im not closing it totally. there is still that hope na someday pede na maging tayo. kung ind man. i hope u be happy. thank you for everything. salamat sa pakikinig at sa pagsalo. pero aus na ako u can stop now. and think about yourself naman. i hope things work out for you. i hope u find someone na pede maging kayo dba? u deserve to be happy. ill never forget lahat ng ginawa mo for me. lahat ng sacrifices mo for me. salamat for still caring. thank you for still being a friend. pero ill make it easier for you. binabalik ko na lahat ng love na binigay mo. iiwas na muna ako sayo. sana u understand. u know its best. the best talaga. sobrang ang wrong timing. nakakainis. ind ko alam kung nananadya ba tlaga. shit gusto ko lang muna magisa. i miss the single life. this sucks!...