stress..

stress.. hay naku super stressing tong week na toh. yung klase ng stress na ind ka makatulog sa gabi dahil sa patong yung mga iniisip nio at hindi mo alam kung alin ang uunahin mo.. in layman's term ANING MOMENTS..
shit its that time of the month nanaman kaya tuliro nanaman ako kakahintay, hoping and praying na wag sanang magtuloy.. i can't sleep and im so paranoid.. parang everything binibigyan ko ng meaning. i can't think straight.. this is serious pag nagkataon and ind ko alam kung pano lulusutan ito. .i'd rather die than go through with this.. and if ever magtuloy man ind na malabong baka magpakamatay nalang ako. im so stupid. i never thought that i would go this far. i thought i was a smart girl but it turns out smart girls and stupid when it comes to love. they just don't know how to look for the perfect partner and when to stop loving the wrong guy. i just dont know when to stop. HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID?it had to come to this point before i realized how far i was going. i never should have taken the risk. i never should have given everything. i feel so sorry for myself but most of all i feel so sorry for my family. i dont know if i can still bare this.. at this point i dont even know what to do anymore... i'd rather see myself dead than to go through with this... arg!!!! stupid bitch!!! maybe i deserve this for all the lies i've said and done..i hope not....pls not this way.. i hope it comes out soon...