hometown

i kinda miss baguio T_T. hehe. i cant explain it eh. i get this very serene, peaceful at home feeling whenever i think of baguio. i miss waking up in my bed. i miss the scenery. i miss touring the city with my friends. i miss the fog, the mist, the cold. i miss the tune of the radio blasting in my 3rd floor bedroom whenever i woke up each day.i just miss everything about that place. im not that homesick. unlike before where i start crying all of a sudden out of nowhere.i've already dealt with my being here and i know that i would not be able to go anywhere for another year and a half. but hey that's not a long time to wait considering the wide variety of opportunities awaiting me when i graduate. i guess i just want to reminisce and write it down so that i can look back some day and read all about how i felt today. whenever i think of that place, i get reminded of my old self and how far i've grown up in just 3 yrs time. physically, mentally and emotionally. all my goals and my desires are more mature now. who would have thought that a shy girl like me would end up like this. well, not everything changed. im still that silly, happy go lucky girl that i am. part of it is because ericson reminded me of who i was before and took me out of the miserable, dark and frustrating part of my life. looking back, i did get most of the things i wanted. and there are a lot more i have to work on to achieve. hay! sometimes i feel like life is such a dull and boring phase and at times like this i feel like life just passed me by, a bliss of events. i still feel that i am a bit left behind compared to my friends who are now "employees". i dont want to be left behind anymore. i know im blabbering out of proportion again thats why i know i am not really good at writing.haha. well back to baguio, i miss sitting on our outside porch. especially at night. i really really want to bring ericson there, coz i know that he will appreciate it. i just love that place. i guess everyone does have a fond memory of the place where they grew up. i didnt really grow up there but i had my most treasured memories in that house. especially now that christmas is fast approaching. i've always wanted a simple celebration of the holidays. a must have for me is a big bonfire! being a baguio girl, it has been a tradition in our city to have bonfires during festivals. it goes well with the cold weather, perfect for cozy snuggling with a loved one. i miss telling jokes with my close cousins and making fun of people. haha. i've always imagined me and ericson sitting in a bonfire with my cousins telling jokes, stories, open forum sessions. and it also goes with his family. i want to meet them all. haha. when i look back, i realize how petty my worries were back then. i just smile. sometimes i wish life was still that simple. no big worries about money, love, people, work, and my future. i felt like everything was planned out and nothing was gonna go wrong. that's why i had a hard time when we moved here and then everything changed, from the people i met, to the plans that i have for myself and my family. haha. its nice to look back once in a while, i never want to forget those memories they are a big part of who i am.