it turned out okey..

happy birthday to me. akala ko my 20th birthday will just be another boring family gathering just like last year pero i was wrong. nakakatawa na sobrang nagrush ako mag-invite ng mga tao at magplano ng mga iluluto. hindi ko kasi sure kung pede si mama tapos wala pala xang pasok. i was glad na lahat ng ininvite ko nakapunta. even with the very short notice.haha. akala ko kasi only a couple of people will make it pero i was surprised. another surprise was when mama agreed na papasukin si erick. haha. si mama pa nga ung nagsabing bumaba siya eh haha kaya kahit na nahihiya siya bumaba na rin siya. she was cool with him. okei naman kami kay mama eh si papa lang naman ang may ayaw eh. kung ano man rason nia hindi ko alam and honestly i dont care. haha. i'm trying to do the right thing pero he won't allow me kaya hindi ko na problema yun. sobrang natuwa ako nung pumasok ako sa van nila erick para sunduin siya then i saw the bouquet of flowers he got me. white roses. tapos may ferrero pa na heart shaped. IT WAS SO SWEET! sobra... it was just like i imagined it pero unexpected yun kaya naman pala he was asking me if i wanted something. haha. sabi nia binigyan nia ako ng white roses kasi it was unique unlike ung red roses na very common. whatever his reason is, i really appreciated it going through all that trouble. thanks hunny. si joyce naman super na wasted haha. i wasn't expecting james to show up pero he did haha astig.. basta.. haha.. tapos nung uwi na sila ind na makalakad si joyce. haha.. it was funny,,, hay mga ulol na toh talga..

it was a pretty good day..i'd say na enjoy ko birthday ko this year... thanks guys.

happi bday phoebi

happy birthday phoebi..haha..funny dati un ung pinakamasayang araw ko. kasi lahat ng attention nasakin lang. akin ang araw na un. usually iang linggo ang celebration haha. isang linggo rin ang kulitan ng mga nagpapalibre at nanggogoyo.haha.pero masaya. nakakamiss...

masaya rin nmn dito eh pero kasi ang lamig haha. greatful ako na meron akong friends na nagtitiis sakin haha kahit papano. i jusst can't help wondering pano kaya kung nasa pinas pa ako?haha..nakakamiss din pala ung mga mokong na yun kahit papano...

birthday wish?haha..madami eh pero pinawish ko na siguro ung maging masaya even just for a day. para kasing ang tagal na mula nung last ko na feel na masaya ako. i laugh everyday pero i guess that doesn't mean that im happy inside. madali lang kasi tumawa eh.haha.

di ko pa nga alam plano ko eh..hahah o well bahala na..it's not that big a deal anymore.. ind nmn titigil ang buong mundo para bumati dahil bday ko e..haha..just another ordinary day,...la-lala-lala

walang iba..

may mga situations sa buhay na talagang kailangang harapin mag-isa. not all the time may mga kasama ka na dadamay sayo. and hindi lahat ng binibigay mo sa iba eh ibabalik sayo. even if you listen to them whole heartedly and give them your full attention and support, it doesn't mean that they are guaranteed to do the same when you need it the most. even the bestest of friends won't always be there to offer a helping hand. sometime you just need to have that courage to do it on your own without expecting anybody to back you up. some pain, hurt and misery are meant to be endured alone. ganun lang talaga ang life. it hurts pero dapat matuto rin tayo lumarga ng mag-isa dahil sa buhay walang paki-alaman.



kelan ba natatapos ang lies?where do the boundaries of lies lay? is there such thing as maximum amount of lies that a person can make to another? and when do you stop forgiving and understanding? is it when you can't bear the pain anymore? or till you feel numb of all the hurt and pain? when does this cycle of lying and forgiving end? does it ever end? what happens when love gets in the way of lying? is it still called love? or simply pretending? love pa bang matatawag when you constantly lie to the person that you are supposed to "love"? when do i stop believing in what you have to say?...when you have shattered me completely to the point where i can't pick myself up anymore from the ruins?of my dignity?my pride?my love?...