change

people change. They don't always do what they say they would. Most of all people make promises that they can't keep.

i hope no one finds my web blog. Lalo na si tristan or si sybil. i'm kinda happy na sila na but at the same time i feel betrayed. Mahirap palang umasa sa tao kasi mas madaling mabigo at masaktan. Sana tama ako na umiwas nalang para wala nang gulo. It's hard haha. Siguro dahil I'm still hoping na Tristan is still inlove with me. I was hoping na he would still be available and waiting for me. I know its selfish, there's no other way to describe it. Naging sobrang kampante lang ako na hindi ako iiwan ni Tristan despite the fact na totally hindi kami nag-uusap at nagpapansinan. Kaya nagulat ako nung sinabi ni beb na sila na nga ni Sybil. Akala ko nagbibiro siya. Out of all people, i never thought na magiging sila ni sybs. Sila kasi ung laging nag-aasaran at nagbabarahan dati. Pero mas ok na na si Sybil nalang yung nakatuluyan nia kase they balance each other. Kapareho ko rin naman kase yung si sybil, praning din and syempre Tristan is Tristan, emoh boy. haha. And its good na angela did not make such a big fuss about it. Unlike nung kami. haha. It's kinda hard not to compare kami noon at sila ngayon. Kami nun literally you and me against the world and against angela.haha. Pero sila ngayon tanggap na tanggap ng tao. The only thing that i still regret is that we could have been a perfect couple. I could have given him everything that he wanted. Pero talagang wrong timing dahil inlove pa rin ako kay erick. I love my boyfriend pero ewan ko ba I still think of tristan often. He is still the perfect boyfriend. Mabait, matalino, caring, maabilidad. Sayang! if only nabigyan kame ng chance, we could have been a great couple. haha. Ang malas ko naman sa lalaki. Lagi nalang ganito. Natatapos bago pa mag-start. Yung kay Barry, Lee and Ken, same kwento. I always end up with the not so great guy. Laging may mali. And syempre laging ako lang ang nagtitiis. HAHA. I hate you Tristan. Akala ko ba sabi mo tayo pa rin in the end? sabi mo hindi mo totally isasara yung pinto para satin. Na malay natin someday, pede nang maging tayo. haha. stupid me!nag-hold on ako sa mga sinabi mo na yun kaya naging kampante ako na mahal mo pa rin ako no matter what. haha. silly me. I'm not mad at you or jay sybil. I just hate you right now pero i know it'll pass. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko baket hanggang ngaun apektado pa rin ako sayo. Sa mga nangyayari sayo. Sobrang interesado pa ren ako na malaman kung kamusta ka na. Kung ano na nangyayari sayo ngayon. kaya nga madalas kong binabasa profile mo at sinisilip ung blog mo dahil angbabakasakali akong may bago kang entry about how your day went. And until now umaasa pa rin ako na you will show up in my face and tell me that you still love me. Sabi ni beb there was this instance na parang sinabi mong hindi ka pa rin over sakin. How i wish it was true! no matter how selfish i sound, that's what I want. I want to end up with someone like you. I hope may mahanap pa akong katulad mo. Sana I deserve someone like you. I hope things work out between you and sybs. Im guessing mas mabuti na sigurong hindi na kita makita. Hindi ko balak magiskandalo dahil alam kong matagal mong hinintay na magkaroon ng someone na magmamahal sayo. You said so yourself. I wish it could have been me pero i guess si sybil yun. Sorry, I just needed to write it down dahil its bothering me so much. I miss you baby.